I See You, Mama

I see you, mama.

Tears glistening in your eyes, welcoming your heart into this world.

Contentment on your face as you snuggle close and fill her.

Clapping your hands as she learns how to clap hers.

Tears streaming, helpless as she fights illness.

Exhausted and spent.

Frustrated with tantrums and big personality.

I see you, mama.

Peering through the classroom window, slowly driving away.

Worry lines forming as you contemplate if you’re enough.

And also joy.

So much joy.

Pride.

Feeling, in the depths of your soul, every word spoken to her.

Always believing in her, more than anything.

I see you, mama.

Never-ending sleepless nights, waking to her cry.

Later, sleepless with planning and preparation.

Later still, unable to sleep until she is safe in her bed again.

I see you.

I see you.

Now, mama, I need you to see me.

Please, please see me.

I am that mama.

Just like you.

What do you wish for her?

I wish the same.

A life complete.

A life of tears, snuggles, exhaustion, and worry?

Yes.

And a life of love, pride, joy, and safety.

A life of her choosing.

I see you, mama.

Please see me.

See her.

Allow my heart those things you wish for your own.

See her.

See me.

I see you, mama.

By Toni Endsley Barney

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6 Comments

  1. Mandi Wedin
    Nov 10, 2014

    Gorgeous.

    • Toni
      Nov 10, 2014

      Thank you, m. Love you.

  2. Michelle W
    Nov 10, 2014

    LOVE LOVE LOVE!!!!!!

    • Toni
      Nov 11, 2014

      Thank you so much, Michelle!

  3. Acacia
    Nov 11, 2014

    What lucky children to have a mama like you Toni. And you to have them!

    • Toni
      Nov 11, 2014

      Thank you, my friend. I am soooo lucky. Amazing, awesome children I have. :-) Love you!

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